I’m not feeling particularly awesome today, regardless of what the nametag on my desk says (it says “Hello, my name is Awesome!”).
I feel… Frumpy. Angsty. Tired. Like I’ve regressed to that 15 year old introvert that basically feels like she doesn’t fit in anywhere and never will.
I know, right?! Sooo emo!
How do I make it stop?
I wish I would wake up happy and stay happy every day! Every day, find something amazing and beautiful and inspiring that would allow me to relax and just bask in peace and wonderfulness.
But today? Well, it’s one of those “I don’t want to be here” days.
I’m sulky, dammit and I don’t want to be, so that makes me sulk more.
It’ll pass. I think I need a good hour of intense kung fu mixed with some really loud, ass kicking punk rock. Ohhh yes.
After giving a tiny bit of thought, my mood could be a result of the following variables:
1. Over-indulgence of some pretty amazing home-made chocolate chip cookies.
2. Reading animal rights debates and related articles.
3. Watching a documentary about the US Government's continued abuse of Native lands and discussing it with my son.
(Which he replied with, might I add: “……..but it’s WRONG. That land belongs to the Natives. It belongs to US, TOO because WE’RE Native.” God, I love that boy.)
Really. It all hurts my heart.