The words have echoed so many times in my head I can’t stand to hear them anymore.
“It would be so easy to just stop.”
Just give up. Just let it go. Accept defeat. Accept that maybe you’re just not cut out for the life that you’ve always dreamed of. Look, you’re thirty one years old and you’re still nowhere near where you want to be in life. Sure, you’ve got some things accomplished, but is that enough? Are you really going to continue to try and climb this hill when you just keep sliding back down (and hitting rocks and branches along the way)? Just give up.
Maybe in order to make it in this business you have to sort of like pain. Not that I enjoy pain! I certainly don’t! But I’ve lived with enough of it to become quite acquainted with it. To expect it. To wonder where it is when it isn’t around.
Anyway, I can see why people give up. There are so many distractions in life. So many good and bad things that can pull you away from your main focus.
And it’s hard!
You’re constantly comparing yourself to others who are where you want to be and you’re constantly wondering if your efforts will be fruitless. There are people who are just waiting to claw at you and pull you back down when you even get a little bit ahead. Nitpicking at your appearance, your sound, your accomplishments. Making you question your own work. Usually it gives me fuel. When someone tells me I can’t do something it makes me want to do it even more. But after awhile of being in the ring, you get tired. You need that hype man, you need that encouragement to keep going. Stay on your feet. Keep your eyes open. Don’t drop your guard.
The problem is you won’t always have that hype man. You won’t always have your friends and family around when you fall to tell you that you can get back up and stay in the fight. They intend to be, sure! But sometimes they just can’t be. Sometimes you have them, but 100% of the time it will come down to you.
Personally, I have to constantly remind myself through prayer and scripture that God is still with me.
Know that I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you. Gen. 18:15
Yet another thing that would just be so easy. Just throw up your hands at God and tell Him that He’s not working for you. He’s not helping you. He’s not doing anything for you.
No, I can’t do that. The more difficult thing is to look at what’s going on in your life and force yourself to remember that God isn’t working FOR you. He’s working ON you. He didn’t create you so that He can do your bidding, He created you to become something amazing. He wants YOU to be a blessing to others. What kind of blessing are you when you’re not getting anything accomplished in your own life? That’s not what He wants for you. He wants you to be able to shine and show the world that you’re shining because of Him.
But it’s dark, it’s scary, it’s frustrating, and you might look at your dreams and how far away they are from where you’re standing and you think there is absolutely no way that you’ll ever make it because you don’t know how…. but HE knows how. And you might be afraid that you’ll never make it. You’ll die before you get there. Maybe accomplishing your goals requires a lot of risk and a lot of putting your neck out.. it’s scary! Maybe it requires hours upon hours of additional work on top of what you’ve already got going on in your life. How are we supposed to accomplish so much in such a small amount of time???
But Jesus looked at them and said, “For mortals it is impossible, but for God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
I can certainly see how easy it is to give up on your dreams. I’ve done it before… but it just wasn’t for me. I actually had a boyfriend break up with me and tell me that I needed to pursue my music career. He knew I wasn’t happy with what I was doing. He was right.. and it still took me another year to force myself to start working on it. Finally in 2008 I stepped onto a stage again… It’s been a crazy rollercoaster ever since with extreme highs and extreme lows and I only hope that it continues to get better until I’m finally living the life that God intended me to…
I can see how easy it would be to give up again.. But I’m not going to. And whatever it is that you’re trying to accomplish in your life, I’m telling you. Don’t give up. Don’t look back on your life and wonder, “What if I had tried..”